SAY YAS!


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name: Md Yasin
d.o.b: 17th November
school: Raffles College
course: Advance Diploma in Tourism and Hospitality Management
in-take: July 2007
enjoys: cycling and swimming
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1:49 am, Wednesday, March 14, 2007

cruelty of this world

you can never get everything you want in this world. but if you are willing to do anything to have it, by all means, go ahead. but sometimes you just have to accept the fact that it's gone and you can never have it. i know how you would feel not getting the things you want. this fustration feeling .. i hate it. but sometimes, it's not fustration that u feel but happiness. it's like fate. you're not meant to get it then don't fucking go waste your time chasing it.

for an example.

you wanted to change yourself, for real. you love this person and now you really do. you tried to hint her and she got it. but your weakness is that you're just too shy to talk to her because of the past. when i say talk, i meant by speaking face to face. whenver you're right in front of her, you can't mention her name but all you do is stare into her eyes and just wish that she was yours from the very begining. when you open your mouth and start to talk, you don't actually know what you're saying cos you're just too nervous. all you could think off is the normal typical questions.
Have you eaten?
How are you?
Where were you from?
or just a simple smile. but you know this can't continue but you really need a lot of time to build that confidence in you to face her. you always wait for her no matter how long it takes for her to get online so that you could chat with her and know how was her day or is she alright. ur eyes are about to close and your brain is about to shut but you refuse to go to bed untill she does.

months after months passed, you and her are still friends. you're mad at yourself. mad for being a coward and not being manly enough to tell her, "i love you". you decided to tell her within one week. you wana tell her everything. how you feel towards her, how she makes you feel happy, how beautiful she is. those are the questions to your answers for her.

but one magical thing happen. you were out with your friends. chilling as usual. then one of them came to you and sat beside you telling you not to get angry or get emotionally out-of-control. as you slowly hear those words coming out from that person's mouth, you just laugh and said you don't believe. but that person didn't change a single bit of reaction and sweared with god's name that its true.

so as i say, sometimes, it's not fustration that u feel but happiness. happy for her. you jus can't get angry or outrageous. you jus know you hear nothing at all but you see the world moving around you pretty fast. cos you know you're not meant to get her. she belongs to someone else.